Epiphany

I didn't understand till right this second. Things happen for a reason. When bad things happen it means you deserve it. Accept it. Resolve it and what not. I don't think I deserve to resolve it this time because it seems I hurt too many people. Because resolving means being friends again. but I don't deserve that. Am I right Buddha? I need to change. I say that, but it's so hard. Maybe itll be easier if i just don't talk to anyone. for now. It's meant to be. I just cause people pain. from bestfriend to close friends to friends. If only a vampire came into town easy death right here. thats what I feel when I lose a friend. Because the person saying sorry the most is the person doing wrong. Me right here. Sorry comes out of my mouth everyday. i do too many wrongs.